Amalthia's recs and fan works

I got back about 10pm...I got tired and decided to leave before the parties (I know I probably should have stayed because I bet that's where the fun is going to be happening) however I got up at 9am and well I was tired.

I really enjoyed most of the panels. (the only one that really frustrated me was the "How to make music videos panel") I came away from it feeling like next time I sign up for a convention I better volunteer to be a panelist for this panel before anyone else has the chance.

1) The panelist (there was only one) had only ever made 1 music video.
2) she only really knew about 1 video program
3) she couldn't get the projector to work (not sure if I can really blame her for this, maybe there really was something wrong with the projector or her laptop settings and there wasn't time to fix it?)
4) Her information was about 3 years out of date...however I gotta admit considering all the people who had shown up didn't know a single thing about vidding it probably wasn't a bad idea to start them on Windows Movie Maker.
5) It would have been nice if she had print outs of the very useful links that are on the internet. Or a list of the various editing programs aviable, maybe some prices...hmm okay for a 1 hour 30 minute panel....maybe that's just too much information.
6) I think the bottom line is that I went hoping for more discussion on the various aspects of music video editing and felt like I was biting at the bit because I'm already way past the the basics.

Now the good things....I got to meet ltlj which is always a nerve wracking experience meeting someone you know online in real life for the first time. I think it went okay.

I also enjoyed the Firefly documentary "Done the Impossible" and I stayed around long enough to see the costume contest. After that I was beat. I think I was ready to leave around 5pm but stuck around a little longer waiting to see if anything else would happen...around 9 I decided waiting another hour for parties to start was just not going to work.

Basically, this was my first real sci-fi convention and I'm not sure if I liked it. (though I did have fun hanging out with the Browncoats) Possibly it would have been more fun if I had went with friends, most of my browncoat friends were pretty busy it seemed like...but the problem with this type of convention is that it kind of meets some of my interests but not quite. The people there enjoy the same shows but we dont' share the same fannish activities, like vidding or fan fiction (let alone slash fan fiction). So far i'd have to say my best convention experiences have been Escapade and the anime conventions when I was younger and went with my two brothers, and my sister.Normally my younger sister and brother hung out the most...but after my sister stopped going and I stopped running around town with friends and actually stayed at the hotel, I spent a lot more time with my younger brother and when things got slow we'd play Magic together or watch movies and order pizza and basically just hang out and talk and it wasn't so lonely.

On the way home tonight I started crying (mostly I think because I was really tired and didn't get enough sleep all last week) but I think part of it is that it hit me that I'm actually really lonely since I've moved to Houston. Yes the job helps, I am meeting new people but it's not the same as having friends you can invite to your home and hang out watching movies/tv and eating lots of junk food together. I still feel cut off and out of place every where I go, like I'm never going to fit in with people I meet in real life.

Basically, I miss my grandmother, my sister (though she can be the biggest pain in the ass ever), and my brothers. I miss Gina more than ever. I wish my friend in England lived close enough so I could do stuff with her on the weekends. (she should know who she is if she does read my journal.) :)

I'm going to bed in a few minutes and I'm betting by tomorrow morning and after a lot of food for breakfast I'll be feeling more myself.